Dishes and deadlines

There's something about doing the dishes that makes you think about things you'd rather not think about.

Deadlines, failures and broken friendships.

I don't know, I get upset at weird things these days.

There had been the never-ending days of being young where I never wondered about tomorrow at all,

Then suddenly,

It was like slipping down the stair you thought was there.

Now, I'm older and the things that counted when I was young don't count at all.

The people I like don't like me back.

And it was never really said that we aren't friends but one day you stopped answering and I stopped texting.

And I know this isn't supposed to be some sign from the universe that I'm meant to be alone forever, but the world does seem like a cruel place when you're seventeen.

I spend my time making myself useful by doing useless things.

I should be studying but the textbooks haunt me.

So, I think I'll do the dishes for a bit longer.

yours,

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